Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Im so mad!!

Im so mad I could break something! I don't know why my weight goes up so much. Its driving me crazy.  I just want to say sorry to everyone who I always made fun of for not being able to lose weight. I am also sorry for teasing people about how I was so skinny.  I miss my 155 days.  Damn this epilepsy!!! Since I was diagnosed with it my weight has gone up 30 lbs.  For the first time ever I think I might hit 190 and I dont want to.  I know I use to say that I really wanted to gain weight, well I changed my mind I dont....I want my 155 cant gain or lose life back. F*** this epilepsy!!!! Stupid medication makes me want to eat more and I DONT LIKE IT!!!!!! I just want to scream!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

My weight is up!!!